People

I have a really hard time understanding people.. It seems it does not matter where you have come in your life, all that you have changed or whom you have become because people are still going to hold the past over your head like a cloud. They want to keep that cloud over your head pull out the pain to get what they want from you... You can chose to allow it or not.. but someday's even though you do not want to play into it your heart is still pulled the scabs ripped open.. Some days I think why not just go back to the way that I was if this is how I am to be judged the rest of my life.. I should have stayed away and never have come back. When your someplace new they know who you are today without all the mud from the past you can be you without worries.. people wonder why I travel so much well this is why.. I am me and I can only be me if I am someplace others aren't judging me.. and at home here but you see here I am still close enough for them to make me feel bad.. Although I know only I allow those feelings to occur..

Just let me be me... I am Happy when I am Free